WOW, it is really 2010! I haven't blogged in a while again and I have missed it. The reason I haven't blogged is I recieved an email that accused me of writing nothing but "self-praise" in both the magazine and here on my blog. For many years I didn't share my stories, and did not come out of the shadows when it came to my writings when I did write. The last few years I have been finding my legs and have been a bit bolder willing to share glimpses into who I really am. I never wanted praise or for people to take it that way so the email really hurt me. I had to step back and think about it. The reality for me and just  for me is that the author of the email said many things that were not only hurtful but untrue, they also come from someone who feels they have been hurt by me. It goes back to perception of events part of my past, my present and unfortunately will to some extent be part of my future. I can not change their perception of me or the things they feel I have done to "wrong" or cause harm to them. I can't even blame the author for the things that were said or harbor any ill feelings toward the author because it is their reality, their perception of events, right or wrong they own their own feelings and I own mine. I don't want credit for the stories I tell, in fact I believe that most sane people would keep much of what I share close and not broadcast it to the world but over the last decade God has been teaching me and showing me what he wants from me, and part of my obedience is to share my stories, and not what I did but what he did. God is the one who deserves the praise, not me. The only thing I have ever done is when I run out of ME OPTIONS I surrender and he performs miracles. I am not anything but a woman who loves her Savior and is blessed to know him, and thankful for his grace in my life and I want to share what he has done in my life because he has asked me too. So I will began pounding away on the keyboard again, and I will share writings from my heart and I will continue to expose my flaws, my defects and HIS AMAZING GRACE in my life. Be Blessed and Happy New Year!